How Far Along: 18 Weeks
Size of baby: Sweet potato. I really love sweet potatoes so this is fitting.
Total Weight Gain/Loss: I am up 5 pounds. I have spent a lot of time out of the house this week which means I have actually been eating. I'm doomed now.
Maternity Clothes: Same issue as last week-which is that crop tops on pregnant bellies are not sexy, even for Kate Hudson.
Gender: We will know in a couple of weeks.
Movement: Sometimes it feels like someone is shifting their position in there but it is the lightest flutter so I can't truly confirm or deny.
Sleep: No rest for the wicked.
What I miss: Nothing. I'm blessed to be pregnant so I don't dare say anything negative.
Cravings: I wanted a soup and salad combo from Panera and I got it.
Symptoms: Bad acne, bad hair and a gut. <--This never changes.
Best Moment this week: Another healthy week.
Confession time: I joke a lot about how I didn't know I was pregnant for a long time, but if I am being honest there is a very serious reason why. This pregnancy has been marred by grief and agony over a family crisis. If I am being extra-honest, it has pretty much overshadowed most everything pregnancy-related. I am convinced God gave me an easy pregnancy because He knew I would crumble. I truly believe we're only given what we can handle, even if it feels like the depths of despair when we're in the trenches. Some days my baby is the only thing I have that feels positive so I am thankful for a brief daily respite. I am trying to document as much as I can so that I have not only a distraction, but a chronicle of joy. Happiness is circumstantial whereas joy is to be found in the heart.
LOVE your picture.. and your confession. that was deep, moving, and honest. I definitely want to document both the good and that bad so that we know exactly what went on throughout our whole pregnancy without any hold backs. I hope things get better for you if they haven't already, and I totally agree that "everything happens for a reason" and that God already has a plan for us.
ReplyDeleteCasey- I thought about you today and wanted to offer to send some pregnancy clothes that I'm done with. They're very nice and have served me well, but I would love for you to be able to enjoy them. I don't have your email saved, but can you email me? thebrauns8506@yahoo.com I can let you know what I have, and you can give me your TX address if you're interested.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear that there is life drama, but you're right to be taking good care of yourself. I always found that as I got farther along in the pregnancy it started to bring joy and excitement even before the baby arrived- hopefully it will be the same for you and can help with the tough family time. Hugs to you!